We have all lost a loved one in our time and thought this is too much. This is too hard. I cannot do this.
After losing a spouse who was my everything, I can safely say I Can do this. It took so much time to wrap my head around the fact that he was never coming home and that I had to live this life without him. It took so much effort to get dressed and continue on with day to day stuff like a zombie. I was miserable. I hated life. I didn’t want to live.
Looking back at it now I know this, my Late Husband saw everything. He saw my state and my emotions and he was deeply saddened. That wasn’t what he wanted for me. That wasn’t the fearless girl he knew and you know what he was right.
Death changes you. It morphs you into who you are now. I am not the same person I was 2 years ago. I have loved and lost. I have fought some pretty ugly battles alone. I have come out on top battered and scarred, but you know what. I am still living. I am moving forward trying to find the good in life because if we don’t we will die in a sorrow state. Our loved ones don’t want that. They would never want that.
We have to remember that they will be waiting for us no matter how long it takes. We didn’t die, though we may have felt like we did, but we were left here to finish writing the story.
Death takes its toll but it is up to us how we react to it and take the bull by the horns. Make your loved ones proud. Make them remember who you were before they passed away and let them meet the new you. The stronger you!
No matter what life throws at you, remember it is always worth living even if it hurts sometimes.
Don’t live in the shadows of your fears.